April 16, 2015.
One month.
What do you do with a month?
I’ve got one month left here at Gordon, and I’m trying to
figure out what to do with it. I’m wondering if a month from now I’ll look back
on tonight and remember how then, I still had a whole month to go. How do you
make the most of the coming days? How do you ensure that you’ve done everything
you could to make them count?
I want to commit to spend the next 30 days living fully.
Feeling every moment for what it is. I want to make these days count, rather
than spend my time counting them down. I want to learn, really learn, and
practice what it’s like to live fully alive. I want to spend my remaining days
as a student here seeking out every opportunity, minimizing my time spent
behind a desk in the back corner of Jenks, my skin hollow under fluorescent
lights, and maximizing the time I spend beneath the sun, throwing a ball, or
reading a book, or learning about someone’s story. I want to try new things I
should’ve probably tried ages ago. I want to meet new people, love people, and
worship our Lord. I want to call to God and have Him fill me, break me, give me
grace. I want to fall to my knees worshipping our King, raising my voice in
church, catacombs, chasement, moonlit worship nights by a softly humming shore.
I want to ditch class for the chance to learn about my friends, stay up later,
wake earlier, and sleep only 5 hours a night. Lengthen my days as the shadows
lengthen with a later setting sun, ride my longboard over cracks in the
pavement just big enough to quicken the tempo of my beating heart. I want to
drive to the beach taking only back roads, play music too loud, and roll the
windows down and eat extra scoops of ice cream. I want to dance on the quad and
swing on the swing, and visit the prayer room since I have never been before. I
want to talk with professors and learn about their lives. I want to sit in lane
during lunch rush just to say hello to those who pass by. I want to make sure,
that amidst all of this life, I’m actually fully alive.
I’ve got one month.
What do you do with a month?
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