2.13.2015

Graduation Rumination V - A Letter

February 13, 2015.

Dear Freshman Amanda,

You’re about to begin an incredible journey. The four years you’ll spend in college are unlike any other time in your life. Because for four years you get to live with all of your closest friends. For four years you get to take classes in things you’ve always wanted to learn about, and you get to partake in clubs and events that you’ve always been interested in. During your time in college you’ll discover so much about who you are and who God is. College is a time of growth, it’ll give you some of your best days, and probably some of your worst. It’ll be filled with so many memories, so many late night laughs, and so many times the stress of it all just got the best of you. But if there’s anything I’ve learned during my four years in college, it’s the following:

You’re going to make friends. A lot of friends. Cherish those friendships, they’re the ones that shape and define who you are. Surround yourself with people who love you, and who draw you nearer to the Lord. You’re also going to lose friends. But it will be okay, I promise. At the time, it feels like the end of the world. Losing a friend is never easy, but sometimes it’s for the best. Some people, no matter how much they mean to you, or how close you become, are only meant to be in your life for a season. Cherish the relationship for what it was, just because it didn’t last forever doesn’t mean it wasn’t beautiful.

You’re going to date. You’re going to meet a boy and fall in love and it will be incredible. You’ll learn what it means to love another person, and you’ll be challenged in so many ways. You’re going to grow so much. But you’re also going to experience heartbreak. The future you spent so long picturing will be shattered, and you’ll have to figure out how to pick up the pieces and move on. But know this, you will move on. You’ll find people to carry you, and you’ll learn what it truly means to lean on the Lord and surrender to Him.

You’re going to crack under the stress of finals. No matter how much you try and avoid it, finals week, at one point or another, will break you. But fear not, because it can only last for so long, and at the end of it you can go home and not think about school for a while. And anyways, grades aren’t everything. Invest in them, learn to love education, but don’t beat yourself up if you don’t make the GPA you wanted by the time you graduate. It really wont matter in the long run.

You’re worldview is going to be shattered. Whatever you thought you knew about life will be completely obliterated in the wave of diversity you’ll experience. You’ll come to know people of completely different backgrounds than yours, you’ll take classes in things you’ve never learned about before, and you’ll hear from speakers with totally different perspectives. Don’t just believe whatever you hear, but don’t be so stubborn and set in your ways that you don’t actually listen. Use what you learn to shape your own worldview.

You’re going to let fear stop you. It’s terrible, but it’s inevitable. You’ll want to be an RA, but you wont because of fear of getting placed in a residence hall you’re uncomfortable in. You’ll want to go on a mission trip but you’ll be terrified out of your mind. You’ll want to get involved in clubs but wont because doing something new is scary and can be challenging. Do it anyways. Don’t let any opportunity pass you by because you’re scared. Feel the fear and do it anyways. Give your fears to God and do it anyways.

You’re going to let your hill pride get in the way. The hill is a great place to live, but it’s not everything. There are some pretty awesome people on lower campus. Don’t let your hill mentality inhibit you from making friends in road halls. It’s a hike, but it’s worth it. Get to know people you don’t just run into in your dorm. Even if it feels forced and awkward, just do it. These relationships might turn out to be the ones that impacts you the most.

You’re going to get lazy. Don’t. The gym isn’t that far, the snow isn’t that bad, it isn’t that cold. Wherever you want to be, whatever you want to do, find a way to do it. Netflix in bed always seems like the better option until you’re actually doing what you were too lazy to do. Get out and do things. You wont remember the days you spent in your room because it was raining outside and you didn’t feel like walking to another friend’s room. What you’ll remember are those moments shared with the amazing people you have just a walk away. The walk may seem far, but it’s the closest they’ll ever be.

You’re going to hate it. One day you’ll wake up and hate every single thing about it. You might ever wake up 100 days and hate it. On those days, focus on the good. Turn your eyes to the Lord, rest in the things that are going well, and find a way to hold on. The good days are coming, they might be right around the corner, so please don’t lose sight of why you love it.

You’re going to dislike your roommate. And sometimes your roommate will be your friend. Don’t lose them because their living habits conflict with yours or end up annoying you. The best thing you can do is learn to love them for who they are in spite of the things they do that bother you. Cherish them, love on them, be grateful for them. Living with people is hard, but it can work. Make it work. Fight for it to work.

You’re going to let your spiritual disciplines get lost in the business. You’ll set it a last priority above school work, spending time with people, or just procrastinating. Don’t. Commit to spending time alone with God each and every day. Make it a part of your life. Ingrain it into who you are. Set aside time to dive into your relationship with the Lord, it’s the only one you’ll surely have for life, and the only one that won’t be gone once you graduate. There’s no more important relationship to develop than that with the Lord. Give Him thanks, give Him praise, turn to Him with your doubts and fears and anxieties, He love you anyways.

You’re going to take it all for granted. You’ll go to sleep one night a freshman and you’ll wake up a senior. Four years seems like forever when you’re packing up your things and moving away from home, but it is going to go by so fast. Hold on to it. Don’t ever for a moment take anything for granted. Don’t take for granted your friends, don’t take for granted your RD, don’t take for granted you experiences and opportunities. Don’t take a single thing for granted, because it’s going to fly by. You won’t even realize it, but it’ll be gone, and you wont ever be able to get it back.

Cherish everything, cherish the pain, cherish the little moments and the big, cherish the sun and the rain and the snow, the food you don’t like that much and the late nights alone in the cubicle in the library. Cherish the Chapels you can’t focus in, and the meetings you attend, and the sports teams you play on, and the books you read. Cherish the struggles and cherish the victories. Cherish these years, because they are worth cherishing.

College is one of the most uniquely beautiful times in life. But one day it’ll slip away into a memory, so do everything you can to make it a good one. Make your story complete; don’t leave any blanks, don’t miss any chance. Do what you’re afraid to do, and do what you love. Push yourself to take risks, but discipline yourself to be smart. Make good choices, but also make mistakes. Challenge yourself to bigger things, but don’t beat yourself up when you fall short. You’ve got four years ahead of you, do whatever you can to make them the best they can be.

With love,
Senior Amanda 


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