January 27, 2015.
How do you come to terms with the notion that some people
are only meant to be in your life for a season?
With only one semester between me and the real world I’m beginning to realize a
heck of a lot of things. But above all of the fears and anxieties that come
from transition, the one thing I can’t come to terms with is the fact that in
the middle of all of this change so many people are going to fall through the
cracks. After graduation I know there will be a handful of people I’ll always
stay in contact with, but what about everyone else? What about the people who I
struggled through those awful classes and laughed at the confusion with? Or
those people that came in as comm majors and journeyed with me through 200,
300, and now 400 level classes, who inspired me to expand my thinking beyond my
narrow focus? Or those who I travelled to another world and shared in
experiences with me that I’ve never shared with anyone else, who watched me and
helped me and comforted me as my worldview was shattered? Or those who shaped
my faith in small groups, pushing me to not be simply a fan of Jesus, but to
lay my burdens down at his feet? Or those who I’ve lived in the same building
with for four years and find comfort knowing they’re always just a few doors away,
that when I see them we can look back on memories of life freshman year and how
much has changed since then? Because these, too, are the people that made
college what it is. They’re the ones I can stop and chat with who when I see
them around campus between classes. They’re the ones I get so excited about
running into in Lane and have impromptu lunches with. They’re the lifeblood of
my college experience. They shaped and defined and enriched my time here at
Gordon. They impacted me, challenged me, helped me grow, made me who I am. And
how on earth am I supposed to say goodbye? How could I possibly imagine a world
where I don’t see these people on a daily basis? How do I leave for summer
knowing I wont be back again in the fall to resume right where we left off in
May? I’m forced to come to grips with the unfathomable truth that some people,
no matter how much they impact you, are sometimes only meant to be in your life
for a season. And as my time left in this season of life winds down to its end,
I’m making a commitment to fully invest myself into these relationships,
fleeting as they may be. Because it’s not the length of time you’ve known
someone, but the depth in which you got to know them. Because these
friendships, they’re what made Gordon home for me.
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