March 3, 2015.
(This was written at the end of last semester [Fall 2014] and edited today)
With graduation just over a quad away I’m sitting here wrestling
with the notion of change. I have hated it here, but I have also loved it here.
There’s been bad here, but there was also good here. I’ve spent a lot of time
here very unhappy and wishing so badly to be free from this place. I so badly
desired to be in the next stage of life where I’d finally have it all figured
out and settle down somewhere so my life. Could really begin. I spent so long
so desperately wanting something better, something only a fresh start could
give me. I was stuck in a “grass is greener on the other side,” mentality, and
I let that ruin what was right here in front of me all along. So I’ve since
been contemplating the idea that you shouldn’t live any chapter of your life
unhappily simply because you’re ready for the next chapter to begin. You’ll get
there when you get there, no sooner, no later, and you’re sure as hell not
going to speed up time. So since none of this is in your control, why would you
choose to spend a single minute of your current circumstance unhappy? I
understand that there are extenuating circumstances, bad things happen, people get
hurt, and stay hurt, but in light of that, I’d challenge you to focus your
sights on the good. Life on earth isn’t very long, it’s a grain of sand along
the shore, and you’d better get to living every second of it before it’s too
late. Because once a chapter closes you can’t go back, you can thumb through
old photographs hoping for a memory, but you can’t go back. So yes, graduation
is coming and that’s scary and exciting, and the next chapter of life holds so
much promise, but don’t you dare let that promise rob today of it’s beauty.
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